Worst of me...

Bura jo dekhan me chala, bura na milya koi....

Jo man khoja aapna, to mujhse bura na koi...

After a long time, I got some time with myself in this last 3-4 months. And it seems it made me realize various new facts about myself.

Since last 3-4 months, every-time I got irritated or angry on someone's behavior, I realized I also behaved in the similar way some other time. This realization at first make me feel more irritated to myself, then confused, then blank. Doesn't know anymore what is correct and what is not. It seems like you do not know yourself et all. And instead of loving yourself,  you will be the last person to get approved by yourself. Then you start trying to find excuses, but your mind is no longer working...

Still confused what to do, accept all those things just because you are worse than that. Or keep not approving it & don't approve yourself as well, when you do it...Somehow don't feel like accepting it...hope the frequency of disapproving myself decrease with time...

Cafe..that makes my day every time, I visit there...

One of the many things that Seattle has given me is love for the coffee. I am not et all a coffee person, but a small walk with a nice dry cappuccino is enough to make my day.

I tried various coffee places in India - cafe mocha, cafe coffee day, barista, costa coffee etc., but could not find that taste and accepted that I won't find that coffee here. Thanks to Abhas, who found this nice cafe, just 15 mins walk from my hostel - Gloria Jean's Cafe. They make it exactly the way I used to have in Seattle.

A Saturday evening could never have been better than walking from the cafe to my hostel while sipping my cappuccino. Feeling happy & peaceful & have forgotten all the worries and loneliness.