Ever smiling life with few blue moments

I wanna to have a life with ever smiling face most of time like an ever smiling bear but I also like to cry like crazy sometimes....

I wanna to have a really busy day, in which i won't remember even a cup of tea, but I also wannna some time to just relax, doing nothing...

I wanna to be too strong person who won't be shaked even slightly in most difficult situation, but sometimes I wanna to loose myself completely, to be the most weekest person....

I wanna to be around people, doing everything together, but I also wanna to be alone sometimes, far from everyone....

I wanna to have a life, in which I could find happiness in every moment, but I like few blue moments as well...